My dearest Sylvia,

Oh how I love and miss you so much! Today, I was so blessed to see a precious package from you—thank you so much for the DVD’s and booklet! As soon as I left work, I got some supper to go, and brought it home—so I could start watching the DVD of you and Therese!  It’s wonderful, and so very timely.  You are the best:  Thank you.

 

I’ll tell you what’s happening—in many ways, the Lord’s truth about EVERYTHING is trampling through my perfectly manicured, prize-winning rose garden that has been MY “Christian life,” –or what you refer to as the “Citadel of Self-Dependency.”  I am learning to be dependent upon the Lord in everything—in work, outside of work, with people, alone by myself—WHEREVER!

 

My mindset that I took on as mine throughout college (performance=identity) is constantly being provoked to brokenness.  My heart-sets are being cleared away for Him to write His name in those places.  Just learning to truly be myself—trusting that Jesus will & does show up if I let go and allow Him to be seen—is a constant lesson.  So, I might be a young lady of 24, but I often feel like the tiny baby girl on the cover of this card—taking little steps to her Papa, who is joyfully waiting for me to stumble towards Him!

 

I’m feeling as though I’m at a place in my life where He’s really taking me out of my mind, and into my heart—the deep places that only HE knows about (even I don’t know!).  He really wants me to understand what my spirit truly already knows—that is the TRUTH----Christ in my, the only hope I have!  My true reality!”  And I believe that He is answering that prayer.  There’s a deeper understanding—a deeper place of surrender and relinquishment that He’s taking me…more like leading me to.  He’s guiding me and leading me through this new life as a husband to me.  It’s the garden of intimacy that at many times looks like the wilderness of despair!  But, I appreciate you sending me your teachings, especially the Romans stuff.  I’m wanting to dig deeper in the word and find the truth about what He says about me.  And truly being after His heart & His WAYS!  It’s He and I forming a deeper love & trust relationship…mostly me learning to trust Him and surrender those self-dependent thoughts over.  Not a quick fix, no…but, though fear and trembling, it’s being worked out!

 

Again, thank you for thinking of me.  Luke and I talk of you and Scott often and hope to someday get up to Louisville to visit you both soon!  I sure do love you so much and appreciate you more than I can say!

 

Love always,

M.

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Hallo my sister!

 

My name is Otto Schulze and I'm a fellow saint & son writing you from Denver. We've never met, but Father has over the past year greatly blessed me and totally overthrown my religion) through the website. I have only been living in the US for one week now having moved from South Africa last week. My fiancé lives here in Denver. I was hoping you could direct us perhaps to some fellow saints here in Denver that's been privileged by Father to know the liberating secret- " Christ in us, our ...ALL IN ALL" . We simply do not fit into organized religion any longer. Although we have many dear saints within that ( as Father graciously deals with us according to our understanding).

 

I would appreciate this so much. I see on the website there is no contact person for Colorado so I thought I'd email you personally. Thank you so much for the site and all the articles. It truly has been liberating...TO FATHER BE THE GLORY!!!

 

IN HIM

Otto